Haven't been blogging much. This place is like dead. No one reads it anyway. Life's been alright. Tests and tests and tests. Sighs. What a life. Nothing too special happened. My theory exam is coming up in like 2weeks. Bloody hell, its my last grade. Please let me pass! Please please please! The term is coming to a close in well, 3weeks. This year sure passed hell quickly. Its already the end of February. Seriously, I've got to start being more hardworking. Like really.
Had career day today. VJC, TJC, MJC and other polys came down to help us find out more about life in the different tertiary education schools. Many were inspired to get into jc after VJC's talk. Seriously, its the one school I really want to get into!! Got to work damn hard. Looked at Universities in Australia that offer Law courses that are recognised in Singapore too. Law law law law law. I want to do a double degree. Sighs.
Feeling so down right now. Just told my boy about me wanting to pursue a law degree in Australia. He could tell I'm quite determined to. And I could tell that he doesn't want me to. He isn't the kind of guy who is willing to give up well his life here in Singapore to go pursue something great out of the country, and I would never force him to. But I'm different. I'm more than willing to. I know he will support me. He knows he can't stop me either. But its just hurting me so much to see him feeling so down. I've never ever thought of leaving him. I' can't imagine my life without him. We said, we're lucky to be able to talk to one another every night, just able to hear one another's voice, we're lucky just like that. Unlike some couples who ain't able to do so like us. I know you're afraid that we'll become like them when I fly overseas. Baby, maybe its because we haven't reached the stage whereby we're ok with being apart from one another, cause we know that the other will return to our sides.
I really want you to know, that you. Yes you. Rhine Tan. You will never ever be replaced in my heart cause no one ever will or even can. I want you to know that I cannot imagine life without you. I cannot imagine living my life knowing that you're not by my side anymore, supporting me through the ups and downs in life. You've watched me go through my worsts times, you've helped me stand up again on my own two feet. You've taught me how to love again. You've allowed me to allow myself to fall in love again with the kind of love you shower me with, the kind of words you say to me, the kind of gifts you put in so much effort into to create it just to see that smile on my face. I love the little childish squabbles that we have, where we always end up in each others arms. Boy, even if I really do go overseas to study, please know that as long as you're here, I WILL come back. I WILL return but to Singapore. Cause though the life here may be so stressful, YOU are something worth for me to come back for. You are someone I really cannot live without.
I hope you'll feel better. Cause its killing me to see the though haunting you.
I wished I could have erased those words, I wished I could take them back. But I know I can't.

Baby, I love you. I really really really do.