Its chinese new year! And my first post of February on my blackberry for the first time. Feb has been alright. Been sick for the whole of last week, only attended school for 3days out of 5. It sucks to be sick trust me, you miss out on so much and it is tough but yet important to catch up on whatever you've missed in this important year.
Been amazing with the class. Celebrated my birthday with a big purple board. Surprise birthday song from cchmsgz. Great birthday.
Class steamboat on 31jan at Kevin's place. Amazingly fun! Steamboat, jumped into the pool, ran from security guard. Those memories will never ever be forgotten. Love you 4LY! :)
Its cny already! First day was ok, as usual. My place, grandma's, kaima's, dayi and kelvin korkor's place. One round of gambling only from yesterday. Lost most of the time. How sad. Stayed home the whole day. Dad's friends came over awhile ago. Julia, gladys, iris and co. Managed to catch up although we haven't seen one another for 2years. Played cheat, daidi, spin the bottle and truth or dare. It was fun! :) better than yesterday I guess.
Met up with my boy on cny eve. Haven't seen him for 3days. Then won't be seeing him for another 4days. That is damn freaking long!

I was a girl who didn't want to or even dared to believe in "forever". I was a girl who doesn't want to and even risk wearing my heart on my sleeve again. A girl who has decided that if it does not work, if I'm unhappy, if I feel hurt, I'd leave. No more third, fourth or fifth chances. No more feeling hurt. No more insomnia, no more crying myself to sleep. No more feeling heartbrokend. Feeling it once was enough. That's what I had decided.
Last night, I told you all these. Then you told me that if one day things don't go well, I've got to tell you, I've got to give you the chance to make it work out right. You asked me to promise you not to leave you as soon as things doesn't go well. Then you told me "you see, I've been making things right so far, and I plan on doing it a long time". Baby, I've seen guys promise girls "forever"s, and end up leaving them. And then they get hurt, so bad. I don't want to end up like these girls. I don't want to feel weak and get knocked down by a guy. Its not worth it. Once is enough. Not anymore. Thus I didn't dare to. I couldn't risk it. But then you asked me. The way you talked to me, every word, you took me in, you made me believe that I could trust you to really not break my heart. I look at you and I wonder sometimes "what the hell did I do to deserve a guy like this?". We're half way through into our 6th month, things have been so amazing. I can't thank whatever gods out there enough for allowing me to meet you. You allowed me to believe that true love exist. That I had someone I really could give my heart to. Thank you. Thank you for allowing me to believe in love again.

I love you.